as a child
I was powerfully open and innocent,
taking in the world,
being shamelessly and fiercely myself.
I was initiated into the illusion
initiated into the illusion
that I am not allowed to be myself.
when was the first time you felt you had to hide?
in this transition,
this initiation into humanhood,
without the proper tools,
the heart naturally closes off
to protect itself
in attempts to stay pure in the midst of
a confusingly toxic environment.
I walked this world
with a closed heart,
ignorantly content with numbness
until my soul chose to
step onto a different path.
you know the one…
the one that’s equally as challenging as it is joyful,
the one where once you start walking,
there’s no turning back.
no turning back from awareness to ignorance.
and thank GOD
because even though