die to live

I sit,

with my hands tied

by the chains of

my unacknowledged wounds,

my body frozen,

watching.

the darkness of my past approaches,

circles me,

looks me in the eye,

and grins

as it tempts to send me

to the inescapable bardo

at the ends of the universe.

the fear overtakes me,

I have no control.

the more fearful I grow,

the more I fight,

and the closer it gets.

the portal is opening,

its gravitational field pulling me

into blackness.

either I keep fighting,

or trust and let go.

I choose trust.

I choose death.


I’m falling

in every direction

as my cells are pulled apart,

and absorb into the void.

and with another breath,

everything is still...